true incest
i am a male in my 40s and i just recently remembered childhood experiences with both of my parents.i used to massage my dad and my sister massaged my mom.he had me massage his butt and i vaguely remember liking it and getting hard and rubbing my penis against the back of then between his thighs as i squeezed his butt.he allowed it to go on a while but think then stopped asking for massages anymore.also started wearing my mom’s lingerie and makeup at the same time and looking forward to massaging him but stopped wearing when the massages stopped.also my dad used to go on business trips usually for 2 weeks at a time,and i would sleep with my mom in her bed when he was away.i remember we would wrap our arms and legs around each other and rub our bodies together and she would rub my feet and legs with her feet while i nuzzled her breasts through her nightgown.can’t remember if anything sexual happened besides the hugging and feeling each other up.i have tried and tried to remember everything that really happened but can’t seem to.is it possible more happened than what i remember but just can’t remember.also is there some way like through hypnotism,etc., that might help me remember what possibly happened.if that is all that happened is it considered incest if nothing truly sexual happened or is it normal childhood behavior?i have been having fantasies about both experiences and almost wished more had happened with both.thanks,dazed and confused