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Hi All,I’m new here, so first of all sorry for any language mistakes. I’m not a native english speaker.Probably I just tell my story and wait then for reactions from you guys which may hopefully include some interesting opinions or even good advice (I’ve found this forum about a week ago and of what I’ve read so far I conclude that some of you guys are really clever and thoughtful about the subject)Me and my younger sister had some incestious (wrongly spelled isn’t it?) encounters when we had been kids: I was 13-14, she was 7-8. It started like I guess many such experiences: we played house, became physically closer and eventually touched each other. It never went as far as many other stories I’ve read in this forum: we never had full intercourse, there had been overall probably 5 or 6 seperate events. I performed oral on her. She didn’t do much actively apart from enjoying, well she was young…. the story didn’t end well: she kind of quickly lost interest, contrary to me (I was developing a huge sex drive in these young days) I tried to push her into it then a couple of times (well, not really forcefully but I showed some urgency) which made her kind of mad: her reaction was to threaten me to tell our parents ‘everything’. Which obviously made me backing off and at the same time awoke in me a huge feeling of guilt.After that there didn’t happen anything sexual between us anymore and obviously our relationship as siblings took great harm of this. We are very, very estranged.As far as I know she never told our parents and we have never talk about it, too. I’m now in my thirties and this is the first time that I talk about this to anyone. I suffered very much from this guilt feeling throughout my teens which resulted in me beeing very shy with girls generally. Only in my early twens I started to enjoy girls and sex and masturbation (I started masturbating when I was 23) and longer relationships.During my adult life I have hardly thought about the hole issue, but it is still kind of in the back of my mind like a dark cloud. I’m still kind of shy with women and I sometimes have difficulties to regard and seduce them as the sexual beings they obviously are. The subject of incest nowadays arouses me. I like brother-sister stories, particularly when they have a happy-end. And in my memorary when I think about the girls and women I have been together with I always come to the conclusion that my sisters pussy tasted best and smelled best. However I have no sexual feelings for her at all nowadays.I noticed that there is a certain tendency in this forum to distinguish two different kinds of incest: the one between adults and their children (were moral is questionable and the responsibility is obvious)and the one between siblings.I feel kind of stuck between these two. Because I think that I was too much older than her to just regard it as childsplay. I WAS responsible BUT on the other side I was only thirteen years old as well.Sometimes I think if we would have done the real thing for both our joy. Then probably things would have turned out better for our relationship as siblings in the end. I don’t know…. we will never speak about it, well it’s 20 years now.I would be glad about reactions and thoughts. Probably there is someone around here who has experienced a similar story.I have now reached an age were I start to think about my own family plans. How can I prevent my future children to suffer this kind of conflict in such a young age? I certainly won’t encourage them to have sex with eachother as long as they are children. But I obviously can’t prevent them from ‘playing around’ and at the end of the day doctor-playing is normal isn’t it? But: I have suffered, so where is the border between right and wrong?Cheersmymood