homosexuality in the bible
I was thinking of making this a poll, but then I couldn’t come up with any choices. I was one of those people who realized he was gay well before puberty. I was a curious child who did a lot of reading about sex and every other topic under the sun and discovered that there was a word for it (homosexuality). I was excited and relieved to know that there were other people like me out there. I also read about how badly gay people are treated and figured it was best to keep my sexuality under wraps. I didn’t feel like being gay was a bad thing, but something that could be very inconvenient and too easily misunderstood. I was eager to meet other gay men. However, it was probably unavoidable that I would be disappointed when I finally got to meet real live gay men. They didn’t seem quite so excited and happy to meet me. As time passed, meeting gay men wasn’t so much of a novelty. The big problem was that we didn’t have anything else in common very often at all. There was also the problem of gay men who have the idea that there is only one proper way to be gay–their way. You had to have the right look, the right politics, the right clothes, you had to drink a lot, you had to use drugs, etc., etc., etc. As a result of a number of such experiences over the years, I have to admit that I don’t feel so good about being gay. Several years ago I went through an ex-gay organization but it didn’t work. Meeting gay men is an excruciating experience for me; it’s sheer torture to chat someone up. The bar scene around here is severely limited, and the local gay organization is clannish and unpleasant. Is there some sort of trick to this?