gay or lesbian or homosexual or same-sex
Hey, It’s going to be exciting for me to start a forum career with what I imagine is going to be an enormous post. I’ll throw in a brief background about myself, or at least my sexual orientation. I haven’t completely thought about it yet, but I think that I have known that I am homosexual for at least two years. There have been a number of things that have never really left me time to think about it, I guess. One of those factors is that I have been opposed to dating in high-school since I entered it. The funny thing is that I have never actually felt attracted to anyone previously. Or, at least, not whatever the kind of attraction is that makes one desire to enter a relationship with someone. I’ve certainly been able to tell whether or not people (both sexes) are attractive to the eye, but I have never felt as though I’ve wanted to date someone else. That is, until about two months ago. I’m not really sure what did it, to be honest. I’ve been friends with him since eighth grade, and best friends for a year or so. For one reason or another, we started hanging out much more during the summer, and this habit seeped into the school year. I started feeling attracted to him in that relationship way around the end of September, and that is coincidentally when I had a long chat with one of my other best friends, who’s a girl. She’s amazing at hatching things out, and, although I virtually knew it at this point, by the end of the discussion we concluded that I was definitely gay. Who knows why it took me so long to have feelings for someone else, however. There are numerous trivial events of which I should probably take note, but I’ll just cover the main points for now (and elaborate later, if necessary). Basically, I have been attempting to figure out if my friend’s gay for the past six weeks and some. That girl friend of mine told me a week or so after I had that chat with her, and after I told her that I was interested in my friend, that she had suspected that he was gay for over a year. On this subject, she has batted perfectly thus far; she called that someone else at our school was gay last year and he came out a few months later. Ironically, she called that I was gay at the beginning of this summer and she was (obviously) proved correct. Anyway, I’ll go over why I think that he’s gay in a bit, but something else that I need to point out is that I came out to him last Friday after a movie. It was miraculously not awkward, which I figured it would be, and he was interested in whom I had told and such. Originally, I had prophesized that he might come out to me if he were gay. He didn’t, but he also didn’t say that he’s straight. The next morning, however, he emailed my girl friend (because he knew that I had told her) and outlined that he’s heterosexual. That’s all that she told me about the email, and it was pretty devastating when I found out. Now I’m here. I’ll presume that you’ve figured out that I haven’t given up on the quest to determine his sexuality. I have absolutely no reasoning as to why he would tell her that he’s not gay, if he is actually gay, though hopefully you will have ideas in regard to this development (other than he is actually straight; although, if this is your opinion, then I’d also like to hear that). Other than that, everything that we have analysed has pointed in the singular direction, that he is indeed homosexual. Of all the time that I have known him, he has never said that he’s had a crush on anyone, for one thing. There’s little crap like that (such as not having a declared orientation on Facebook, like me - sad, I know, but I’m throwing it in), but there’s a lot of other characteristics. We walk essentially shoulder-to-shoulder everywhere, and I don’t initiate this; there’s always insane eye contact between the two of us (and other friends have picked up on this), while sitting and standing (and walking), he appears to have very little of a “personal bubble” with people (particularly guy friends), prior to his knowing that I’m gay, he frequently brought up obscure gay references with me (like noting to me out of the blue that New Jersey recently approved gay marriage); my girl friend noted that his intonation changes when he talks with me, even though I’m no expert in this field; and he also comments about the looks of male rockstars, if the subject comes up. There’s some other things, too, but I don’t want to keep rambling. I think that the main characteristic is that feeling… something that tells me to keep questioning, or the feeling that he is gay. Also, is it weird that he wanted to hang out soon after I told him that I was gay? I thought that it was, because I figured that if someone were told by someone else that he or she is gay, then the two would feel awkward around one another for a few days or more. I’m glad to have his friendship either way, because he’s either gay (which would be fantastic), or he’s the most accepting and amazing friend who I know. I think that my question here is, from what you know, do you think that he’s gay? I could keep elaborating, but I feel a bit embarrassed about how elongated this post is. If you have any thoughts about this situation at all, please tell me. And if you think that he is gay - why doesn’t he just say something? It has only been a few days since he found out that I am gay, but it should be obvious that I like him. Anything that you have to say, or questions that you have, please let me know; because I am dying to know what’s happening with him, as soon as possible.